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deacon； remembering that text about 〃the sins of the fathers。〃 But Em was speaking：
〃I asked 'What law'？〃 she said。 〃There are the laws in the old law…books still； I guess。 They don't mean much to us； now that things are different。 That old law； like George said…it waited till somebody did something； and then it punished。 But the thing was done。 Can we take that responsibility now？ There are all the children。〃
Suddenly there seemed nothing more to say。 They all sat silent； each considering possibilities。
〃No；〃 Ish found himself thinking； she does not have a philosophy。 She mentions the children and makes it a special case； Yet there is perhaps something deeper even than a philosophy in her。 She is the mother； she thinks close to all the basic things of life。〃
Probably it was not so much a long time that passed as what seemed a long time。 Then Ezra spoke。
〃While we sit here； even…things happen fast these days！ We'd better do something。〃 And then he added； more as if thinking aloud； 〃I saw； in those days…yes； I saw lots of good ones die。 Yes； a lot of good ones have died。 I almost got used to death 。。。 no； never quite。〃
〃Should we take a vote？〃 asked Ish。
〃What on？〃 said George。
Again there was a pause。
〃We can run him out；〃 said Ezra； 〃or 。。。 the other。 We can't imprison him； and what else is there？〃
Then Em faced the issue squarely。
〃We can vote Banishment； or we can vote Death。〃
There was plenty of paper in the living…room desk。 The children enjoyed drawing pictures on it。 After a little hunting around； Em located four pencils。 Ish tore a sheet of paper into four small ballots； kept one himself； and gave one to each of the others。 With four people to vote； there might； of course； be a tie。
Ish took his own slip of paper； and wrote a big B on it； and then paused。
This we do； not hastily； this we do； not in passion； this we do； without hatred。
This is not the battle； when a man strikes fiercely and fear drives him on。 This is not the hot quarrel when two strive for place or the love of a woman。
Knot the rope； whet the ax； pour the poison； pile the faggots。
This is the one who killed his fellow unprovoked； this is the one who stole the child away； this is the one who spat upon the image of our God； this is the one who leagued himself with the Devil to be a witch； this is the one who corrupted our youth； this is the one who told the enemy of our secret places。
We are afraid； but we do not talk of fear。 We have many deep thoughts and doubts； but we do not speak them。 We say； 〃Justice〃； we say； 〃The Law〃； we say； 〃We； the people〃； we say； 〃The State。〃
Still Ish sat with his pencil poised above the B on his slip of paper。 He knew； far within the deeper reaches of his thought； that Charlie's banishment would； in all likelihood； not solve the situation。 Charlie would be back； he was a strong and dangerous man； and could exert much influence upon the younger people。 〃What's the matter？〃 Ish was thinking。 〃Am I still just worrying about the leadership？ Am I worrying that Charlie will replace me？〃 He could not be sure。 Yet； at the same time； he knew that The Tribe faced here something real and dangerous and even dreadful； in the long run threatening its very existence。 In that final realization he knew that he could write only the one word there； out of love and responsibility for his children and grandchildren。 He scratched out the B and wrote the other word。 Its five letters stared back vacantly at him； and then for a moment he had a sudden revulsion of feeling。 Was this ever right？ By writing that word； was he not bringing back into the world all the beginnings of war and tyranny； of the oppression of the individual by the mass； in themselves diseases worse than any which Charlie could carry。 And why did it all have to move so fast？
He started to scratch the word out； but stopped again。 No； he was torn two ways； but he could not quite scratch it。 If Charlie should kill someone； that might make it easier to inflict the final penalty； and yet that was only the old conventional way of thinking。 The eye for the eye； and the tooth for the tooth！ To execute the murderer never brought back the murdered； and was only vengeance。 To be effective； punishment should not be retribution so much as a prevention。
How long had he paused？ He suddenly came to the realization that he was sitting there silent； staring at the paper； while the other three were waiting for him。 After all； his was only one vote； the others could out…vote him； and so he could have his conscience to himself and still Charlie would only be banished。 〃Give me your slips；〃 he said。
They passed them in； and he laid them face up before him on the desk。 Four times he looked； and he read： 〃Death 。。。 death 。。。 death 。。。 death。〃
Chapter 8
They shoveled the dirt back into the grave beneath the oak tree。 They dragged branches and carried heavy stones to cover it； so that what lay beneath would be safe from burrowing coyotes。 After that； they all walked back； the long mile。
They kept close together； as if needing one another's support。 Ish walked among them； swinging his hammer in his tight hand。 He had had no use for the hammer； but still he had taken it along。 Now the downward pull of its weight seemed to keep him firmly on the ground。 He had held it in his hand； like a badge of office； when they had gone to find Charlie and； flanked by the boys' leveled rifles； Ish had said the words and heard Charlie begin to curse obscenely。
Now it would never be the same again。 Ish did not like to think of what had happened； and when he did think of it； he felt a little sick； physically。 Perhaps； if it had not been for George's solidity； they could never have gone through with it finally。 George； with his practical skill； had knotted the rope and set up the ladder。
No； he would never like to think of it in the future； either。 He was sure of that also。 This was an end； and this was also a beginning。 It was the end of those twenty…one years when they had lived； now he thought； in a kind of idyllic state； as it might have been in some old Garden of Eden。 They had known their troubles； they had even known death。 But it had been simple； as he looked back toward it。 This was an end； Yet； it was also a beginning； and a long road lay ahead。 In the past； there had been only a little group of people； scarcely more than an overgrown family。 In the future； there would be the State；
Yet there was an irony。 The State…it should be a kind of nourishing mother； protecting the individuals in their weakness； permitting a fuller life。 And now the first act of the State； its originating function； had been to bring death。 Well； who could say？ Likely enough； in the dim past reaches of time； the State had always sprung from the need to crystallize power in some troublous time； and primitive power must often have expressed itself in death。
〃It was necessary。。。。 It was necessary；〃 he kept saying to himself。 Yes； he could justify the act on the highest of all grounds…the safety and happiness of The Tribe。 By the one sharp act； evil and ugly though it seemed； he and the others had prevented…so at least they would hope…all that chain of ugliness and evil which ran on； once started； through the years。 Now…so at least they would hope…there would be no endless succession of blind babies； and of trembling； witless old men； and of marriages defiled even in their consummation。
Yet he did not like to think about it。 He could justify it rationally。 Even though the facts were not wholly proved； the chance had been too great to take。
But he would never be sure how much other motives； secondary and personal； had swayed him。 Guiltily he remembered how his heart had leaped when Ezra's words had given support to his own dislike and fear； and to his apprehension that his leadership was chaflenged。 Well； he would never know。 Now； in any case； it was finished。 No； he would only say； 〃It is done。〃 Too often； he remembered his history； executions had finished nothing； and dead men had risen from their graves； and their souls had marched on。 But Charlie had not seemed to have much of a soul。
He walked with the others。 They were all silent； except that the three boys were beginning to recover their spirits and chaff back and forth at one another。 There was no reason why they should be less concerned than the older men。 The boys had not voted originally； but they had concurred。 〃Yes；〃 Ish thought； 〃if anyone is guilty； we are all guilty together； and in time to e no one can raise a word against any other one。〃
Along the littered and grass…grown streets； between the rows of half…ruined houses； there was never a longer mile than that one back from the new grave beneath the oak tree to the houses on San Lupo Drive。
When he went into his own house； Ish went to the mantelpiece； and set the hammer there； head down； handle sticking stiffly upward。 Yes； it vvas an old friend； but his thought of the twenty…two years altered a little when he remembered the day when he had first used the hammer。 Those years…perhaps they had been lived； as he had thought a little while ago； in a kind of Garden of Eden！ Yet； also； they had been the years of anarchy； when there was no strong force to protect the individual against whatever might rise up against him。 He remembered that day vividly still…the one when he had first e driving down from the mountains and had stood in the street of the little town of Hutsonville； pausing for a moment； hesitant； looking up and down the street； realizing that he was about to do something illegal and irrevocable and terrible。 Then； he still remembered the feeling； he had drawn back deliberately with the hammer and smashed the flimsy door of the little pool…room and gone inside to read the newspaper。 Oh； yes…when you had had the United States of America around and about you； as all…present as the air you breathed； then you had thought little of it except to plain about ine…tax and regulations； and you felt yourself the strong individual。 But when it had vanished！ How was it the old line had gone？…〃His hand shall be against every man's and every man's hand against him。〃 So it had been。 Even though he had George and Ezra； they had all acted only from day to day； no battle…tested symbol of unity had bound them。 Though things had worked fortably and pleasantly in all these years； that might only have been good luck。
Now from across the street he heard the sound of a saw； and he realized that George was back at work with his beloved wood。 George would not spend much time thinking about what had happened。 Neither would Ezra； or the boys。 Of them all； only he； Ish； thought much。 And now； since he could not help it； he thought back again。 Again he wondered； as so often before； what really were springs of action。 Did it e from the man inside？ Or from the world； the outside？ Take all this that had just happened。 The water had failed； and then they had sent the boys on their expedition as the result of losing the water； and from the expedition had e Charlie； and from Charlie； who was part of the outside； had e all that had happened afterwards。 Yet he could not say； either； that this was all an inevitable succession of happenings from the initial failure of the water。 His own mind had worked creatively； throwing out the suggestion for the expedition； seeing imaginatively what might be done。 And then again he thought of Joey； that other one who saw what was not there； who looked to the future。
Em came in。 She had not been at the oak tree； that was not woman's work。 But she too had written the word upon the ballot。 Yet Em； he realized； would not consider too much or worry。 She was a person too unified in nature。
She spoke： 〃Don't think about it now。 Don't worry about it。 〃
He took her hand in his； and pressed it against his cheek。 For a moment it was cool； and then he felt it warm to the flush of his own skin。 Many years it was now since he had first seen her standing in the light of the doorway； and heard her speak； not a challenge or a question； but in quiet affirmation。 Twenty…one； twenty…two； years…and now he knew that no matter what happened th