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e way that rickety thing must be swaying and felt his stomach turn over。
NEVER get me up there； he thought； not for a million bucks。
And then the thing he had been afraid might happen since the moment he had observed that there were men on the tower now did happen： one of them fell。
Jack came to his feet。 His face wore the dismayed； slack…jawed expression of anyone who has ever been present at a circus performance where some dangerous trick has gone wrong…the tumbler who falls badly and lies in a huddled heap； the aerialist who misses her grip and bounces off the net with a thud； the human pyramid that unexpectedly collapses； spilling bodies into a heap。
Oh shit； oh cripes； oh…
Jack's eyes suddenly widened。 For a moment his jaw sagged even farther…until it was almost lying on his breastbone； in fact…and then it came up and his mouth spread in a dazed； unbelieving grin。 The man hadn't fallen from the tower； nor had he been blown off it。 There were tonguelike protrusions on two sides of the platform…they looked like diving boards…and the man had simply walked out to the end of one of these and jumped off。 Halfway down something began to unfurl…a parachute； Jack thought； but it would never have time to open。
Only it hadn't been a parachute。
It was wings。
The man's fall slowed and then stopped pletely while he was still some fifty feet above the high fieldgrass。 Then it reversed itself。 The man was now flying upward and outward； the wings going up so high they almost touched…like the crowns on the heads of that Henny Youngman parrot…and then driving downward again with immense power； like the arms of a swimmer in a finishing sprint。
Oh wow； Jack thought； driven back to the dumbest cliché he knew by his total； utter amazement。 This topped everything； this was an utter pisser。 Oh wow； look at that； oh wow。
Now a second man leaped from the diving board at the top of the tower； now a third； now a fourth。 In less than five minutes there must have been fifty men in the air； flying plicated but discernible patterns： out from the tower； describe a figure…eight； back over the tower and out to the other side； another figure…eight； back to the tower； alight on the platform； do it all again。
They spun and danced and crisscrossed in the air。 Jack began to laugh with delight。 It was a little like watching the water ballets in those corny old Esther Williams movies。 Those swimmers…Esther Williams herself most of all； of course…always made it look easy； as if you yourself could dip and swirl like that； or as if you and a few of your friends could easily e off the opposite sides of the diving board in timed choreography； making a kind of human fountain。
But there was a difference。 The men flying out there did not give that sense of effortlessness； they seemed to be expending prodigious amounts of energy to stay in the air； and Jack felt with sudden certainty that it hurt； the way some of the calisthenics in phys ed…leg…lifts； or halfway sit…ups； for instance…hurt。 No pain； no gain！ Coach would roar if someone had the nerve to plain。
And now something else occurred to him…the time his mother had taken him with her to see her friend Myrna； who was a real ballet dancer； practicing in the loft of a dance studio on lower Wilshire Boulevard。 Myrna was part of a ballet troupe and Jack had seen her and the other dancers perform…his mother often made him go with her and it was mostly boring stuff； like church or Sunrise Semester on TV。 But he had never seen Myrna in practice 。 。 。 never that close up。 He had been impressed and a little frightened by the contrast between seeing ballet on stage； where everyone seemed to either glide or mince effortlessly on the tips of their pointes； and seeing it from less than five feet away； with harsh daylight pouring in the floor…to…ceiling windows and no music…only the choreographer rhythmically clapping his hands and yelling harsh criticisms。 No praise； only criticisms。 Their faces ran with sweat。 Their leotards were wet with sweat。 The room； as large and airy as it was； stank of sweat。 Sleek muscles trembled and fluttered on the nervous edge of exhaustion。 Corded tendons stood out like insulated cables。 Throbbing veins popped out on foreheads and necks。 Except for the choreographer's clapping and angry； hectoring shouts； the only sounds were the thrup…thud of ballet dancers on pointe moving across the floor and harsh； agonized panting for breath。 Jack had suddenly realized that these dancers were not just earning a living； they were killing themselves。 Most of all he remembered their expressions…all that exhausted concentration； all that pain 。 。 。 but transcending the pain； or at least creeping around its edges； he had seen joy。 Joy was unmistakably what that look was； and it had scared Jack because it had seemed inexplicable。 What kind of person could get off by subjecting himself or herself to such steady； throbbing； excruciating pain？
And pain that he was seeing here； he thought。 Were they actual winged men； like the bird…people in the old Flash Gordon serials； or were the wings more in the Icarus and Daedalus line； something that you strapped on？ Jack found that it didn't really matter 。 。 。 at least； not to him。
Joy。
They live in a mystery； these people live in a mystery。
It's joy that holds them up。
That was what mattered。 It was joy that held them up； no matter if the wings grew out of their backs or were somehow held on with buckles and clamps。 Because what he saw； even from this distance； was the same sort of effort he had seen in the loft on lower Wilshire that day。 All that profligate investment of energy to effect a splendid； momentary reversal of natural law。 That such a reversal should demand so much and last such a short time was terrible； that people would go for it anyway was both terrible and wonderful。
And it's all just a game； he thought and suddenly felt sure of it。 A game； or maybe not even that…maybe it was only practice for a game； the way that all the sweat and trembling exhaustion in the Wilshire loft that day had just been practice。 Practice for a show that only a few people would probably care to attend and which would probably close quickly。
Joy； he thought again； standing now； his face turned up to look at the flying men in the distance； the wind spilling his hair across his forehead。 His time of innocence was fast approaching its end （and； if pressed； even Jack would have reluctantly agreed that he felt such an end approaching…a boy couldn't go on the road for long； couldn't go through many experiences such as the one he had gone through in Oatley； and expect to remain an innocent）； but in those moments as he stood looking into the sky； innocence seemed to surrounded him； like the young fisherman during his brief moment of epiphany in the Elizabeth Bishop poem； everything was rainbow； rainbow； rainbow。
Joy…damn； but that's a cheerful little word。
Feeling better than he had since all of this began…and only God knew just how long ago that had been…Jack set off along the Western Road again； his step light； his face wreathed in that same silly； splendid grin。 Every now and then he looked back over his shoulder； and he was able to see the fliers for a very long time。 The Territories air was so clear it almost seemed to magnify。 And even after he could no longer see them； that feeling of joy remained； like a rainbow inside his head。
7
When the sun began to go down； Jack realized he was putting off his return to the other world…to the American Territories…and not just because of how terrible the magic juice tasted； either。 He was putting it off because he didn't want to leave here。
A streamlet had flowed out of the grasslands （where small groves of trees had again begun to appear…billowy trees with oddly flat tops； like eucalyptus trees） and had hooked a right so that it flowed along beside the road。 Farther off； to the right and ahead； was a huge body of water。 It was so huge； in fact； that until the last hour or so Jack had thought it was a patch of sky that somehow had a slightly bluer color than the rest。 But it wasn't sky； it was a lake。 A great lake； he thought； smiling at the pun。 He guessed that in the other world that would be Lake Ontario。
He felt good。 He was headed in the right direction…maybe a little too far north； but he had no doubt that the Western Road would bend away from that direction soon enough。 That feeling of almost manic joy…what he had defined as cheerfulness…had mellowed to a lovely sort of calm serenity； a feeling that seemed as clear as the Territories air。 Only one thing marred his good feeling； and that was the memory
（six； is six； Jack was six）
of Jerry Bledsoe。 Why had his mind given him such a hard time about coughing that memory up？
No…not the memory 。 。 。 the two memories。 First me and Richard hearing Mrs。 Feeny telling her sister that the electricity came out and cooked him； that it melted his glasses all over his nose； that she heard Mr。 Sloat talking on the phone and he said so 。 。 。 and then being behind the couch； not really meaning to snoop or eavesdrop； and hearing my dad say 'Everything has consequences； and some of those consequences might be on the unfortable side。' And something surely made Jerry Bledsoe unfortable； didn't it？ When your glasses end up melted all over your nose； I'd say you'd been through something mildly unfortable； yes
Jack stopped。 Stopped dead。
What are you trying to say？
You know what I'm trying to say； Jack。 Your father was gone that day…he and Morgan both。 They were over here。 Where； over here？ I think they were at the same spot over here where their building is in California； over in the American Territories。 And they did something； or one of them did。 Maybe something big； maybe no more than tossing a rock 。 。 。or burying an apple core in the dirt。 And it somehow 。 。 。 it echoed over there。 It echoed over there and it killed Jerry Bledsoe。
Jack shivered。 Oh yes； he supposed he knew why it had taken his mind so long to cough up the memory…the toy taxi； the murmur of the men's voices； Dexter Gordon blowing his horn。 It hadn't wanted to cough it up。 Because
（who plays those changes daddy）
it suggested that just by being over here he could be doing something terrible in the other world。 Starting World War III？ No； probably not。 He hadn't assassinated any kings lately； young or old。 But how much had it taken to set up the echo which had fried Jerry Bledsoe？ Had Uncle Morgan shot Jerry's Twinner （if Jerry had had one）？ Tried to sell some Territories bigwig on the concept of electricity？ Or had it been just some little thing 。 。 。 something no more earth…shattering than buying a chunk of meat in a rural market…town？ Who played those changes？ What played those changes？
A nice flood； a sweet fire。
Suddenly Jack's mouth was as dry as salt。
He crossed to the little stream by the side of the road； dropped to his knees； and put a hand down to scoop up water。 His hand froze suddenly。 The smooth…running stream had taken on the colors of the ing sunset 。 。 。 but these colors suddenly suffused with red； so that it seemed to be a stream of blood rather than water running beside the road。 Then it went black。 A moment later it had bee transparent and Jack saw…
A little mewling sound escaped him as he saw Morgan's diligence roaring along the Western Road； pulled by its foaming baker's dozen of black…plumed horses。 Jack saw with almost swooning terror that the driver sitting up high in the peak…seat； his booted feet on the splashboard and a ceaselessly cracking whip in one hand； was Elroy。 But it was not a hand at all that held that whip。 It was some sort of hoof。 Elroy was driving that nightmare coach； Elroy grinning with a mouth that was filled with dead fangs； Elroy who just couldn't wait to find Jack Sawyer again and split open Jack Sawyer's belly and pull out Jack Sawyer's intestines。
Jack knelt before the stream； eyes bulging； mouth quivering with dismay and horror。 He had seen one final thing in this vision； not a large thing； no； but by implication it was the most frightful thing of all： the eyes of the horses seemed to glow。 They seemed to glow be