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'No；' she said； and in her sudden pensiveness she could have been mistaken for beautiful。 'It will be a nightmare。'
'I don't have tickets；' he said； as if he hadn't heard。 'This is the last day they sell them。'
'Hey； Tommy； you're going the wrong way！' Brent Gillian yelled。
She stopped。 'You're going to be late。'
'Will you？'
'Your class；' she said distraught。 'Your class。 The bell is going to ring。'
'Will you？'
'Yes；' she said with angry helplessness。 'You knew I would。' She swiped at her eyes with the back of her hand。
'No；' he said。 'But now I do。 I'll pick you up at seventhirty。'
'Fine；' she whispered。 ‘Thank you。' She looked as if she might swoon。
And then； more uncertain than ever； he touched her hand。
From The Shadow Exploded （pp。 74…76）：
Probably no other aspect of the Carrie White affair had been so misunderstood； second…guessed； and shrouded in mystery as the part played by Thomas Everett Ross； Carrie's ill…starred escort to the Ewen High School Spring Ball。
Morton Cratzchbarken； in an admittedly sensationalized address to The National Colloquium on Psychic Phenomena last year； said that the two most stunning events of the twentieth century have been the assassination of John F。 Kennedy in 1963 and the destruction that came to Chamberlain； Maine； in May of 1979。 Cratzchbarken points out that both events were driven home to the citizenry by mass media； and both events have almost shouted the frightening fact that； while something had ended； something else had been irrevocably set in motion； for good or ill。 If the parison can be made； then Thomas Ross played the part of Lee Harvey Oswald … trigger man in a catastrophe。 The question that still remains is： Did he do so wittingly or unwittingly？
Susan Snell； by her own admission； was to have been escorted by Ross to the annual event。 She claims that she suggested Ross take Carrie to make up for her part in the shower…room incident。 Those who oppose this story； most lately led by George Jerome of Harvard； claim that this is either a highly romantic distortion or an outright lie。 Jerome argues with great force and eloquence that it is hardly typical of high…school…age adolescents to feel that they have to 'atone' for anything … particularly for an offence against a peer who has been ostracized from existing cliques。
'It would be uplifting if we could believe that adolescent human nature is capable of salvaging the pride and self image of the low bird in the pecking order with such a gesture；' Jerome has said in a recent issue of The Atlantic Monthly； 'but we know better。 The low bird is not picked tenderly out of the dust by its fellows； rather； it is despatched quickly and without mercy。'
Jerome； of course； is absolutely right…about birds； at any rate … and his eloquence is undoubtedly responsible in large part for the advancement of the 'practical joker' theory； which The White mission approached but did not actually state。 This theory hypothesizes that Ross and Christine Hargensen （see pp。 10…18） were at the centre of a loose conspiracy to get Carrie White to the Spring Ball； and； once there； plete her humiliation。 Some theorists （mostly crime writers） also claim that Sue Snell was an active part of this conspiracy。 This casts the mysterious Mr Ross in the worst possible light； that of a practical joker deliberately manoeuvring an unstable girl into an situation of extreme stress。
The author doesn't believe that likely in fight of Mr Ross's character。 This is a facet which has remained largely unexplored by his detractors； who have painted him as a rather dull clique…centred athlete； the phrase 'dumb jock' expresses this view of Tommy Ross perfectly。
It is true that Ross was an athlete of above…average ability。 His best sport was baseball； and he was a member of the Ewen varsity squad from his Sophomore year。 Dick O'Connell； general manager of the Boston Red Sox； has indicated that Ross would have been offered a fairly large bonus for signing a contract； had he lived。
But Ross was also a straight…A student （hardly fitting the 'dumb…jock' image）； and his parents have both said that he had decided pro baseball would have to wait until he had finished college； where he planned to study for an English degree。 His interests including writing poetry； and a poem written six months prior to his death was published in an established 'little magazine' called Everleaf。 This is available in Appendix V。
His surviving classmates also give him high marks； and this is significant。 There were only twelve survivors of what has bee known in the popular press as Prom Night。 Those who were not in attendance were largely the unpopular members of the Junior and Senior classes。 If these 'outs' remember Ross as a friendly； goodnatured fellow （many referred to him as 'a hell of a good shit'）； does not Professor Jerome's thesis suffer accordingly'
Ross's school records … which cannot； according to state law； be photostated here … when taken with class mates' recollections and the ments of relatives； neighbours； and teachers； form a picture of an extraordinary young man。 This is a fact that jells very badly with Professor Jerome's picture of a peer…worshipping； sly young tough。 He apparently had a high enough tolerance to verbal abuse and enough independence from his peer group to ask Carrie in the first place。 In fact； Thomas Ross appears to have been something of a rarity … a socially conscious young man。
No case will be made here for his sainthood。 There is none to be made。 But intensive research has satisfied me that neither was he a human chicken in a public…school barnyard； joining mindlessly in the ruin of a weaker hen 。。。
She lay
（i am not afraid not afraid of her）
on her bed with an arm thrown over her eyes。 It was Saturday night。 If she was to make the dress she had in mind； she would have to start tomorrow at the
（i'm not afraid momma）
latest。 She had already bought the material at John's in Westover。 The heavy； crumpled velvet richness of it frightened her。 The price had also frightened her； and she had been intimidated by the size of the place； the chic ladies wandering here and here in their light spring dresses； examining bolts of cloth。 There was an echoing strangeness in the atmosphere and it was worlds from the Chamberlain Woolworth's where she usually bought her material。
She was intimidated but not stopped。 Bemuse； if she wanted to； she could send them all screaming into the streets。 Mannequins toppling over； light fixtures failing； bolts of cloth shooting through the air in unwinding shelters。 Like Samson in the temple； she could rain destruction on their heads if she so desired。
（i am not afraid）
The package was now hidden on a dry shelf in the cellar； and she was going to bring it up。 Tonight。
She opened her eyes。
Flex。
The bureau rose into the air； trembled for a moment and then rose until it nearly touched the ceiling。 She lowered it。 Lifted it。 Lowered it。 Now the bed； plete with her weight。 Up。 Down。 Up。 Down。 Just like an elevator。
She was hardly tired at all。 Well； a little。 Not much。 The ability； almost lost two weeks ago； was in full flower。 It had progressed at a speed that was
Well； almost terrifying。
And now； seemingly unbidden … like the knowledge of menstruation … a score of memories had e； as if some mental dam had been knocked down so that strange waters could gush forth。 They were cloudy； distorted little…girl memories； but very real for all that。 Making the pictures dance on the walls； turning on the water faucets from across the room； Momma asking her
（carrie shut the windows it's going to rain）
to do something and windows suddenly banging down all over the house； giving Miss Macaferty four flat tyres all at once by unscrewing the valves in the tyres of her Volkswagen； the stones
（！！！！！ no no no no no ！！！！！！）
…but now there was no denying the memory； no more than there could be a denying of the monthly flow； and that memory was not cloudy； no； not that one； it was harsh and brilliant； like jagged strokes of lightning： the little girl
（momma stop momma can't i can't breathe o my throat o momma i'm sorry i looked momma o my tongue blood in my mouth）
the poor little girl
（screaming： little slut o i know how it is with you i see what has to be done）
the poor little girl lying half in the closet and half out of it； swing black stars dancing in front of everything； a sweet； faraway buzzing； swollen tongue lolling between her lips； throat circled with a bracelet of puffed； abraded flesh where Momma had throttled her and then Momma ing back； ing for her； Momma holding Daddy Ralph's long butcher knife
（cut it out i have to cut out the evil the nastiness sins of the flesh o i know about that the eyes cut out your eyes）
in her right hand； Momma's face twisted and working； drool on her thin； holding Daddy Ralph's Bible in her other hand
（you'll never look at that naked wickedness again）
and something flexed； not flex but FLEX； something huge and unformed and titanic； a wellspring of power that was not hers now and never would be again and then something fell on the roof and Momma screamed and dropped Daddy Ralph's Bible and that was good； and then more bumps and thumps and then the house began to throw its furnishings around and Momma dropped the knife and got on her knees and began to pray； holding up her hands and swaying on her knees while chairs whistled down the hall and the beds upstairs fell over and the dining room table tried to jam itself through a window and then momma's eyes growing huge and crazed； bulging； her finger pointing at the little girl
（it's you it's you devilspawn witch imp of the devil it's you doing it）
and then the stones and Momma had fainted as their roof cracked and thumped as if with the footfalls of God and then。。。
Then she had fainted herself。 And after that there were no more memories。 Momma did not speak of it。 The butcher knife was back in its drawer。 Momma dressed the huge black and blue bruises on her neck and Carrie thought she could remember asking Momma how she had gotten them and Momma tightening her lips and saying nothing。 Little by little it was forgotten。 The eye of memory opened only in dreams。 The pictures no longer danced on the walls。 The windows did not shut themselves。 Carrie did not remember a time when things had been different。 Not until now。
She lay on her bed； looking at the ceiling； sweating。
'Carrie！ Supper！'
'Thank you；
（i am not afraid）
Momma。'
She got up and fixed her hair with a dark…blue headband。 Then she went downstairs
From The Shadow Exploded （p。 59）：
How apparent was Carrie's 'wild talent' and what did Margaret White； with her extreme Christian ethic； think of it？ We shall probably never know。 But one is tempted to believe that Mrs White's reaction must have been extreme 。。。
'You haven't touched your pie； Carrie。' Momma looked up from the tract she had been perusing while she drank her Constant ment。 'It's homemade。'
'It makes me have pimples； Momma。'
'Your pimples are the Lord's way of chastising you。 Now eat your pie。'
'Momma？'
'Yes？'
Carrie plunged。 'I've been invited to the Spring Ball next Friday by Tommy Ross…'
The tract was forgotten。 Momma was staring at her with wide my ears…are…deceiving…me eyes。 Her nostrils flared like those of a horse that has heard the dry rattle of a snake。
Carrie tried to swallow an obstruction and only
（i am not afraid o yes i am）
got rid of part of it。
'…and he's a very nice boy。 He's promised to stop in and meet you before and…'
'No。'
'…to have me in by eleven。 I've…'
'No； no； no！'
'…accepted。 Momma； please see that I have to start to； to try and get along with the world。 I'm not like you。 I'm funny … I mean； the kids think I'm funny。 I don't want to be。 I want to try and be a whole person before it's too late to…'
Mrs White threw her tea in Carrie's face。
It was only lukewarm； but it could not have shut of Carrie's words more suddenly if it had been scalding。 She sat numbly； the amber fluid dripping from her chin and cheeks on to her white blouse； spreading。 It was sticky and smelled like cinnamon。
Mrs White sat trembling； her face frozen except for her nostrils； which continued to flare。 Abruptly she threw back her head and screamed at the ceiling。
'God！ God！ God！' Her jaw snapped brutally over each syllable。
C